Spawn Of Possession

Aftermath, with hazy ocular I realize I am back, sheltered now.
Irrational paranoia swallows me.
Suppress the delusion.
My past gets mirrored when I'm there, a clandestine zone, a place I fear.
Can't recollect these memories as things I have partaken in reality.
A ruined focus a shattered view, I am transparent, cut and bruised.
Answers nowhere to be found, what is this past I keep getting reminded of.
Dissonant, with trembling hands I cover my eyes, a touch of sense denied.
Bound by suspense It's suddenly clear, I'll yield to the edge of the leaf thin steel.
Fixated state on the artery, in the city of death I'll find peace and it won't haunt me.
Desperately cutting without response, the blood keeps coagulate, refused by the reaper.
With fester disdain I stay, disharmonic signals, source unseen