Primordial

"I have crossed the seas, I have left cities behind me,
and I have followed the source of rivers towards their
source or plunged into forests, always making for other
cities. I have had women, I have fought with men; and
I could never turn back any more than a record can spin
in reverse. And all that was leading me where?
To this very moment..."
(Jean Paul Sartre "Nausea")
I sink below the waves
is this what I've been looking for?
it seems
I've found someone to die for
someone to lie for...
I've drunk my fill of misery
it's time to move on